For some weeks I felt like drawing. I drew a lot when I was little, but now I just don't have time left for it, but yesterday I just had to draw something to look if I was still able to do so haha. I know it's not superfabulous, but I was kinda happy with it.




Click on it to see it bigger. Though, I must say that it's prettier in real life because I scanned it on my computer and because it's only black and white he did not catch everything I drew :(

Hallöchen (stupid way in german to say 'hi'),

when I saw Chris' entry on LJ this week I remembered that I still hadn't post anything since I started at college, which is 4 weeks ago. Though, I have been very very busy and when I get home I'm so tired I just read on LJ instead of posting. Where should I start? Okay, day 1. I was so extremely nervous! I had a girl from my class on MSN already so she would wait for me at the trainstation in Tilburg (where I study) to go to college together. Since it was just my second time of going by public transport (especially by train) I was scared to miss my train or bus but I got there on time. First we had to go to the lecture hall were we got a long boring speech and shortly after a not-so-funny comedian who told us the world would be ruined in 2012. Then we had to meet our class. I had a class of 12 people. Three guys, 9 girls. Well, that day was a huge dissapointment. The atmosphere that I had felt when I was there a few months ago was gone so I basically was glad I could go home at 2... so I thought. Wrong! They hadn't told us that after the getting-to-know-eachother-programm the normal lessons would start... till 16.30pm. When I got home I was depressed and extremely tired. The next days I was soo glad when I got home everyday, being very tired from all the new impressions. That first week I was annoyed by a lot of my classmates. They are all from another part of the Netherlands and they are so different than me. They say everything what's on their mind and are talking all the time. I'm not used to that and it makes me wanna scream 'So, can you shut up now for a sec?' a lot.

It's getting better now. There is one girl who talks all the time and who answers at everything the teachers say. Very annoying. It's in a way like 'Look at me look at me I know it all!' even worse is it that she is now in a relationship with a guy from our class and that they are touching eachother all the time. They're so sticky. Then there is that girl who walks around in clothes and combination of clothes from which you thin: What were you thinking? It's a bit sad, because in my opinion you have to be at least a bit representive as a teacher. Her hair is very grease, she has smutty teeth and she smells. Oh, and I forgot to mention that she just can talk about one subject ALL DAY LONG: Musicals. Even the musical-lovers in our class start to hate musicals now. For the rest we have our little group of friends now. I'm glad that I at least belong to a group now. It's nice to have friends.

My study is hard and I'm doubting about my choice a lot. The profession of being a teacher is perfect for me, but german.. I'm in a class with people who are raised bilingual or live close to the german border so that they are often there. Most of them speak german so well already or know so much about the country that I don't know. I have talked about my doubts with my tutor. He thinks I can do it, but I don't know. Maybe it's just because I'm very tired now, a bit depressed and stressed because we have a test this monday and the teacher already hates me because she thinks I'm stupid. Though, I learn a lot I must say. About how education works, which is very interesting but also a lot of the german culture and language. In a few weeks I'm having my first trip to Germany! We are going to Weimar and Leipzig.

We also have a lession where we learn how to teach, how to handle a class. This week it was my turn to make a lesson of 15 minutes for my classmates. I teached them something about First Aid. The teacher said that I had done very very well, but that I had to stop pulling at my clothes when I'm talking. But that was because I was very nervous. Haha.

So, I think that I had to go studying now. VERY HARD. I've done more homework in the past four weeks than I have done in three years at highschool. I'm glad it's almost autumn-holiday, though I have troubles at my job and I have to work a lot during the holiday :S

That was it for now. Auf Wiederhören!

I'm back! On monday I left with my mum and brother for a short vacation in Germany. I hadn't slept for two days because I promised my mum I would drive too and I was so scared. We went and halfway we made a stop. My mum asked me if I was sure that I wanted to drive too. I doubted and than she offered to drive the rest too. I was relieved although it felt a bit like I led my mum down.

The journey was beautiful but tough. There were a lot of mountains and valleys and my ears hurt like hell. I was glad we finally arrived in Cochem, Germany after 4,5 hours. First: There were HOT guys 0_0 Awww,.. there was one guy who worked in the restaurant of the campingsite and when he said Guten Tag I thought I would melt right there.

I wanted to go to Germany to practice my German speaking skills, but unfortunately negen in every ten people was dutch XD Only in the shops I could speak german. I noticed that there is still a long long road to go for me, because when I went to get 'kaiserbrötchen' I came home with 'käsebrötchen.'

Tuesday we went to Cochem. It was a beautiful town with very small little roads but amazing buildings. We bought some bretzels and I bought a german flag.
The market of Cochem:


I felt not good that day. Actually, I felt quite crap that day so after our visit to Cochem and the local supermarket (Where they had stuff which they already don't sell in the Netherlands anymore for ages so it was fun to buy those things ;)) I just watched TV and missed my laptop. (How come, am I an Internet-addict? (A))

Wednesday we went to Trier. The oldest city of Germany. It was gorgeous! I bought hell of a lot muhahaha. CDs, clothing and stuff. The best part was our sightseeing tour in a real sightseeing bus. That kind of bus where you don't have a roof and you are sitting on top of the bus. I had promised to take photos so I sat on the roof and then... it began to rain HARD. All those people walking on the streets were watching us XD But although I was so extremely cold and moody because of the rain it was actually quite fun. A few pics:







Thursday we went to Koblenz. I was tired and didn't enjoy it that much as Trier. There was a lot of traffic in the city and it just didn't had the charm that Trier had. We went to the Deutsche Eck. The point where the Rhine (Rijn) and Musel (Moesel) come together. There is a huge statue of Wilhelm 1 on a horse and you can climb in the building and you had an amazing view in it.
From the outside:


Inside (I love this pic):


The view:


The stairs inside the building 0_0:


After we came home we just sat around, watching the Olympics. My holiday-feeling was kinda ruined when they called from college that there will be an introduction-camp this monday till friday. Like, c'mon: Calling me four days before? I didn't knew anything about the camp! So now I'm not going and I have to go to work.

It was an amazing holiday, but I'm glad to be back because my own bed sleeps the best of all ;) Though, I miss the beautifull landscape already:

I read the website from my new school today. What caught my attention was a vacancy for a columnist. They are searching for a student who wants to write a 400-words column every two weeks. Of course they pay you for it.. quite a lot actually.

Now I'm doubting wether I should do it or not. I like writing a lot, but am I also good enough? Can I handle it to have to write a column EVERY two weeks? It must be at least a bit student-related. I'm fearing a writer's block :(

For now if I really want this I have to send in a test-column and since I don't have inspiration at the moment someone suggested I should send in one of my already existing blogs (I have also a blog in Dutch, somewhere) but they are all more than 400 words.. by far XD I can send my application till the fourth of september and I start the first of september so I can wait till then and write a test-column about my first day of school, but if I'm chosen to become the new columnist I already have wasted one great subject to write a column about..

Gash, I really know what to do.

Oh my.. I'm having a date in two hours *flail*

okay, it's not really a date-date, I'm just going to show him the city that's all. But I talked to him a lot on MSN and I like him so who knows :)

Finally I'm really having vacation. The last three days it was 27 degrees outside.. and I had to work. Now I'm having vacation and last night there were heavy thunderstorms and when I woke up it was raining. Nice.

I finally finished my book I started months ago. My mum went to the city to the supermarket and I joined her. When we were done it was raining cats and dogs. We had a shopping trolley full of food and drinks and stuff. I decided to run to our car to pick up the tray we had in the car. I run back (in the meantime I was quite wet already). We filled the tray but it still hadn't stopped raining and we had to pick up my brother. I offered to get the car closer to the store. I parked it next to a huge pool of rain-water. No problem, normally... but when we wanted to put the tray in trunk of the car the tray broke.. into the pool.

Everything was wet but we put it in the car and we went off... till we smelled tomato juice. We stopped the car to look in the trunk: The mug with tomato sauce had broken. As you can imagine it was a huge mess.

Now I've baked brownies. They just came out of the oven and it smells goooood <33

So, today I saw another picture of 'him' :P I must say he looked nicer from aside hahahaha but he has a cute smile and I think I should give him a chance. We had nice talks the past days and we will definatly meet, because I promised that. For now I told myself to stay calm and definatly not fall in love or something in that direction till I meet him in real life.

And now I'm off to bed.

So for two years or so I'm on Hyves, which is a kind of Dutch Facebook. There is also a Hyves for people who like the german language and Germany and I'm member of it. Last week I got a message from a guy: 'Hi! Nice to see I'm not the only one here who likes German(y) this much' It turned out that he originally comes from the province I live in, but now he lives 2,5 hours away because he is studying near the german border. So we sent eachother a few messages. He was looking for an apartment in the neighbourhood of where I live because he has a new job in a restaurant nearby. He is studying to become a cook.

Anyway, I helped him finding a room and after a few messages on Hyves he asked my MSN. I gave it to him and we talked a lot that afternoon. That was saturday. Sunday we almost talked the whole day. Yesterday afternoon we talked and in the evening till it was 0.20AM!

There definately is a click between us. Last night he said he had to go to school today and that he would probably online, but he isn't and I'm pretending that I don't care but actually I'n deeply disappointed.

I can't wait to see him real life, but I'm also a bit afraid. What if he disappoints me and breaks my heart?

EDIT: He came online an hour ago and we had some normal chit-chat about our days and about the apartment he's looking for and suddenly he disappeared and now I'm like wtf? Did I did something wrong? Why didn't he even said goodbye? I'm a bit pissed, although I don't want to sound like I'm claiming him.. *wondering*

A week ago a guy was hitting at me when I was at work in the supermarket. He really looked nice so I thought it was quite funny that he flirted with me. Like c'mon, there are cuter girls for sure. But okay. I hoped to see him again and today I did, but it wasn't like I hoped..

I was at work again when I heared some noise from outside so I went to take a look. I saw to customers looking at something at the parking-lot. I looked and I saw a huge tractor with a second carriage driving on our small parking-lot: with a tractor! For god's sake! He wanted to turn left with the thing but couldn't work it out and drove over some of the big stones that are laying there to mark the road. So a customer came up to me:
'I don't think you boss likes this.'
Me: 'I don't think so either..'
Customer: 'You should go and tell him..'
Me: 'I wi..'
The customer went inside and I waited at the door. Then suddenly the door of the tractor opened and a guy jumped out of it: the guy. And I was like omfg.

He came up to me so I said: 'So you think this is normal? What the hell were you thinking to drive a fucking tractor on a parkinglot?'
He: 'Yeah, what should I have done then? Park it on the street and block the whole traffic?'
Me: 'I don't know, but it's also ridiculous to park your tractor over the whole length of our parking-lot! You could have hit the cars!'
He: 'Hoho, calm down men, I will drive it from the parking-lot safely.'
Me: 'I hope so'

He was rude and arrogant. Customers had called one of my older colleagues who was also like: omfg? How ridiculous is this? So he went to the guy and said in a rather nice way (I couldn't have done it, I was pissed off) that he should get lost.

C'mon: Have you ever thought of going shopping IN A TRACTOR?

Guys just dissapoint me so much, they always have and I don't know why.

So yesterday there was my graduation a moment I had looked forward to for a while. My mum had called the hairdresser to come and straight my hair and I picked up my ring at the jewelry-store. My hair was definately fabulous. It was more straight then it has ever been hehe. So, when we arrived at school I got a corsage on and we went to the auditory to sit there. It started with two speeches and after that the graduates from former-St WC-college went to another room to get their certificates and we stayed in the auditory.

There we had to come on stage with our tutor-class and there was a little photo-moment for the parents. So I guess there are now at least twenty pictures of me on stage. After that they called our names one by one and you have to come. The principal shook your hand and then you got your certificate from your tutor. Now it's almost a generaly known fact that I dislike my tutor/french teacher. But they guy kissed all the girls when he gave them their certificate so I was like oooh no, no way that he is going to kiss me. So I stepped forward and I stood in front of him with quite a distance and I gave him my hand but he pulled me to him and kissed me so I was like ooooooookay. :S And I heard my mum giggle. It was quite obvious that I didn't want to kiss him so yeah. Then I had to sign my certificate and I went to sit in the back with a classmate of mine C. So he said: 'Those three kisses must have hurt.' 'Yeah, I was really planning in not kissing him' His mum: 'Yeah, I could see that. It was quite obvious.' So okay, I made quite a fool of myself.

After a break for an hour we were back in the auditory and two of my classmates held a speech. After that a couple of unknown teacher performed a cabaret which was quite bad. After a while we were so annoyed that we couldn't help ourselves and had to laugh about everything XD Then the most embarrassing part was yet to come. We had to come on stage and we had to sing a song with even a little dance with gestures and we were like noooo please XD But we did it hehe and after that we got the promised champagne. I didn't like it though so when a classmate didn't watch his glass a second I threw my campagne in his (A).

Anyway, it was a nice evening and a weird feeling that it's all over now.

Photos:

'The' kiss *rolls eyes*